4.7.13 April Showers

4.7.13

April Showers

April is here! Well, last Sunday (Easter) mom called me and we had quite the conversation. She voiced her stand on that one’s view on a controversial subject like gay rights should be kept only to the person. She said that the public is not accepting of it and so I shouldn’t be posting my support for it on any public forum. I was at first taken aback and then frustrated/angry/hurt all at the same time. So I became silent and the phone call ended not too long after. We didn’t talk until yesterday when she called to apologize for being offending my beliefs. I ended up writing a long letter to her over the next few days and put lots of hours and tears into about my coming out and how it’s like to live as a gay person. How hard it is and how I constantly struggle with it. It’s not something I accepted overnight and have no shame in. That night we had that disagreement, I cried in frustration and hurt. It stayed on my mind for a few days and it really helped to write it out. I haven’t been able to send her the letter because I don’t have internet here yet. I did go to rent-a-center after work on Friday to rent a couch set, TV and TV stand. It’ll be delivered on Thursday afternoon. I still have to call Comcast for internet and cable. Well, lately I was trying to eat healthier and incorporate a more vegetarian diet and these past few days I have fallen off the wagon. I did get my period on Friday, but still! I wanted to cut down on my meat intake, dairy intake, pasta/rice intake, and processed sweets. I wanted to increase my veggie and fruits, whole grains, and fish intake into my diet. And of course do cardio and strengthening activities. I need to do a whole month or at least a couple weeks straight of eating clean so I can see if it make a difference in my mood, skin, and energy levels. MOTIVATION is what I need. I can’t believe I’ll be 28 on Friday. I really don’t feel that age. More like 24 or 25. Right now I’m listening to One Republic’s new album ‘Native’ on repeat and repeat. Love it!

El is flying into Sacramento on Thursday night and so she’ll be here to celebrate my birthday weekend and I worked today so I could get the weekend off. Not exactly sure what our agenda is this weekend, but to enjoy, relax, and have fun. I don’t want to be running around like how we spent her birthday weekend in the Bay. Although, it was a blast! We just did a whole lot. I really wanted to go to a pro-women’s soccer game, but the closest team is in Portland. Still debating if I should go. I still have to book my flight to Vegas in early May for Cyn’s graduation. And I’m supposed to be saving money! I keep losing focus and spend money on things I want at the moment.

I’m making friends with a few co-workers like Nataly and Lisa. Nataly is a COTA and is a traveler like me. She travels with her husband and dogs. I saw her yorkie puppy and she is soooo cute. Nataly is young, only 23. Lisa is a OTR from Iowa and we went out to lunch one day. Very friendly and opinionated. So far, I’m the closest to them and Laura, a PTA traveler. A bunch of them leave in 4 weeks though and then more travelers will probably take their place. I need to get out of my funk and go explore this town and push myself to put myself out there to make friends. I feel introverted at times and rather be alone and do nothing. And then at times, that so isn’t me. I confuse myself sometimes…ha.

Peace out.