howdy there... i have been trying to keep positive and to combat the insomnia, i have been getting up early and not taking any naps so i will be tired at the end of the night. i decided to put myself back on the Cali market for traveling as I NEED A JOB! tonight the temp is going to dip into the 20's and will be cold for the next few days. starting to feel very stressed and the desperation level is rising as i look at my bank account and the amount of bills that need to be paid. just hope that i can find a job in Cali and afford to put down enough for rent. prob need to find an unfurnished place as it will be cheaper. i really hope i can find something SOON.
i have so many dreams and visions about the future and what i would like to accomplish this lifetime. the book i am reading, "the happiness project" talks about how the journey is so much more enjoyable than the actual destination. it's the part of growing and being in the process that we feel engaged and alive with something to look forward to, but we trick ourselves thinking that we will be happier in the future when all is accomplished. and yet it is a better feeling when imagined than in reality.
why does money have to be such a central and magnified part of our lives? why does everyone's life have to revolve something that has no feelings, no literal worth, but just an applied attribute that we accept??? we slave away our lives for this, we let it decide our fate. something to ponder...
peace.
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